the real me

~Oshi n aCap ~

2009-11-23T00:40:00.000-08:00

When Oshi first talked to aCap,

Oshi felt like Oshi had known aCap forever,

telling aCap my problems

and what Oshi didn't want ever.

aCap listened to Oshi

Oshi bet aCap thought Oshi'd never end,

who would have thought

we would be the best of friends.

Over a period of time,

Oshi got to know the real aCap.

A guy so charming and gentle,

with a heart so true.

You've survived your life

with Oshi by your side.

Oshi told aCap Oshi'd never leave

because of the feelings Oshi have inside.

There was a time

Oshi wanted to explore,

what would have happened

if Oshi would only open the door.

Oshi know aCap

like no one Oshi have ever known,

and sometimes Oshi wonder

what do Oshi do when we're alone?

So Oshi have decided

time answers all.

If it is meant to betime will remove the wall.

Standing between us,

holding us back,allowing us to feel

It's the relationship that we lack.

Oshi love the way we are together,

aCap can always make Oshi smile.

Will it ever really be forever?

Oshi guess Oshi will have to wait awhile.

Time will reveal,

what lies aheadbut always remember

what Oshi have said.

Meeting aCap has changed my life

and Oshi really love aCap so,

the feelings Oshi feel for aCap

Oshi never letting go.

Remember Oshi always

and Oshi will too.

Oshi will always think of aCap

Oshi and aCap.

You are my heart, my soul, my treasure, my today, my tomorrow, my forever, my everything!

2009-11-22T23:18:00.000-08:00

yeap.. mmg bby pergi dgan full of hurts.. sO mybe kat sne bby ley tenangkan hati sket ..smpai dkat kg mummy arOund 2.00 a.m friday mOwnink ! tgOk jex phOne.. dah xde line celcOm sudey...cuaca hujan x benti lak.. mcm tawu2 hati bby cmne tyme tue en....

buhsan... tataw nk g mne at sne.. nk g rOnda2 pOn .. hujan.. nk kuar bebOrak..xpndai ckap Thai..sO juz stay dlm blik..Oh God..i can;t stOp thingking Of him... and finally i realized that i can't stay away frOm him....i can't leave withOut u bie !! hOnestly.. it feels suCk when nO sms.. nO call frOm u .. really suCk when i heard nOthing frOm u sweetheart .. i hOpe u feel the same too..

the first thing when bby arrived at Lee Garden hOtel,Hatyai..1 a.m on Sunday mownink ! with full Of hOpes.. bby on phOne.. ahaha.. mntak2 lew ade je line.. yes2! mmg ade pOn.. but xbOle nk call Out ke Malaysia..dunnO why .. then bby try sent sms kt Bie .. huhu .. bOleh la.. then bie reply .. bie .. bby miss u a lOt ...

Then bile smpy jex bOrder Thailand- Malaysia.. bby trus call u .. Unfortunately.. batt3 lak empty..but bby happy bcOz bie smpat jwab call n say .. sayang.. huhu .. miss glew kOt bie pnggil cmtue.. 3 hari Ouh tak dengar .. haha ..bie mse tu ngah tdO erk ? huhu sOeii yea.. xsngje kacO bie haha...

dlm kul 6 cmtue.. bby smpai umah sudaa... trus call bie.. tp ur fwen jwab ckp aCap mndi la.. haha..aduh .. mcm2 la en ... finally baru bie jwab... huhu lma en kite on the phOne.. telinga bby da pnas glew kOt .. but rndu pnyer psal.. biar jex... huhu .. knOe sumthing sygs,, i lOve u ! i can't live withOut u !! bie ckap jgan g da erk? haha ciannye kna tnggal... tue la.. wat prangai lg .. nnty bby g lagi jauh bru taw,..

My prOmise !

Hubby,

we may not be the best of what we are,

we may not talk often,

I just want you to know that no matter how difficult things can be,

In the long run

You will still have me...

gOOdbye ~

2009-11-18T21:33:00.000-08:00

bie.. if dis evening bby x smpat nk wish gOOdbye kt u ..u read jex dis blOg k ?if tak sempat say gOOdbye..im gOing with full Of hurts... seyesly dis week ..bie jauh gler nan bby ..tak mcm befOre .. but bie yakinkan bby en... bie ckap.. nO la.. bie always wif me.. n bby pOn nk sdapkan hti .. n juz say .. yea.. uke la... but deep in my heart .. juz me knOw it.. sO sOrry if it make u hurt after u read this... bie .. tcare k ? jgan nOtty sgt ... jgan asyik tdO jewk.. study same laa... jgan mlas... ketuk kpla nnty taw .. ? i'm leaving u 3 days.. nO sms.. nO chatting .. n call frOm me.. tcare Of urself.. i lOve u .. if i never cOme baCk .. juz want u 2 knOw .. i lOve u damn mUch !!

gOOdbye sweetheart ...

To the One Dat I lOve !! <3

2009-11-13T08:07:00.000-08:00

Dear Hubby ..

How happy you have made my life ..

What jOy you've brought my way ..

Your gift for making clouds roll by ..

And lighting up each day ..

How blesssed i am tO see your face ..

The happiness yOu shOw ..

You are the dearest one tO me ..

The One that i lOve sO ..

with lOve,

Baby..

last night n dis night !!

2009-11-11T05:47:00.000-08:00

bie.. smlm bby mara bie .. actually x patOt en bby mara ? sbb bkan bie yg suh dat gurl tulis en? hmm.. tp jeles sket la.. but bie yakinkan bby .. bie ckap die juz ex bie jek.. dats all.. uke.. bby trust u .. bie pOn nk bby trust u en ? uke fine.. sO sOrry .. k ? bie ckap bie syg bby jex.. xde yg laen.. uke2.. thx bie .. bby pOn syg bie .. (i hOpe i LOVE u all my LIFE) ..

pastue bie ckap bie nk fOkus study .. kan ? b da bnyak fun n enjOy .. huhu happy 2 hear dats sygs ! hOld ur wOrds taw bie .. bby suppOrt u k ? chaiyOKk2 !! hahaha .. nnty kalO bie maen2 agy .. bby ketuk kpla bie(ketuk mnje2 jex)x smpy ati Ouh .. hahaha... k sygs ! gdlUck taw !! huhu

i lOve u mOre than U dO sygs !!!

there's nOthing can descriBe my lOve tO yOu..

u're my Everything hOney !!

deeps in my heart ! juz u Only.. no One else...

bie .. bby bOsan gilew neyh .. tyme nie bby taw bie ngah sebuk ngn xcimen bie en.. xpe bby pham sgt2 .. hukhuk.. agypOn bby xkesah .. bie bz sbb study .. bkan wat bnde plik2 an ? bby nk bie success slalu taw ! prOmise with me k ?

sincerely,

Baby...

AAR !! da best !!

2009-11-09T01:00:00.001-08:00

best kan ?

hahahaha .. tgok pOn da rsa enjOy !!

suma wajah2 keriangan ! guys ..

u all rawcks!!

hallOween tyme !!

dat ghOst want tO kill me !! hehe !

31st OctOber 2009

2009-11-08T22:44:00.000-08:00

Guys..

clOse erk cter kat PD ..

hahahhahaha.....cter laen lak... dri PD gerak ke PuchOng.. n kat sne Oshi knal nan Icha .. huhu ! die cumel la.. chinese lOOk ! ahhaa.. dat mOwnink ktOrg sume stay at Umah Icha .. huhuh .. thx tO her n her mOm .. tdO rmai2 .. sesak2 jgak.. asalkan ade tmpat nk rest.. pastu dlm kul 10 pg .. suma da bangOn .. mOm ichA wat bekfast .. mee gOreng .. haha .. wjah2 kelaparan sume ade tyme tue.. kiran mkan pling bnyk kOwt ? haha ... thx yea mOm icHa .. erm kt stu la oshi jmpe iCha 4 the 1st tyme n the last tyme .. then x jmpe da.. :( n x sempat nk snaP piC nan die

sume gerak ke CASA balek.. my bie tue tak sbar2 nk mndi kat pOOl.. mcm bdak2 jex an .. haha... berendam seketika .. huhuh ... lpak CASA jap.. sementra tnggu sume kwan2 berkumpul .. nk g kOnsert AAR kat bukit Jalil...

smpai kt sna .. Oshi knal ngn kwan baru.. rmai.. tyO.. pastu shasha... hehehe rmay la... enjOy ngn kOrang ! best !! huhu

sume ckp Oshi nan aCap mcm abg n adEq .. abg acaP n adeQ shirO ! hahaha.. bie .. thx 2 u k .. gler2 jge bby kt sna.. hug me x lpass.. takOt hlang .. yerla kecik je kan ? hehehe ... kite melOmpat sma2 .. sweet Ouh .. gOnna miss dat mOment damn muCh .. i lOve u sweetheart !

after kOnsert.. kami kmbali ke CASA .. sume da tired kowt .. Oshi pOn off awl.. haha .. saket pnggang lg .. sume ade la... eyh .. sOk tue da maw balek lOrh ... :((

KeceriAan d PD .. tyme Hujan ! haha ! >.<

2009-11-08T21:37:00.000-08:00

hukhuk .... nmpk kan ? happy jex dOrg .. hujan ke x hujan .. blasah je... We are TEENAGERS ! and we lOve tO have fun n enjOy Ourself ..huhu ... thx yeah guys !
yg x besh sbb xley nk lepak lelama kat sna.. hujan , kilat sume ade.. bnyak menghabiskan masa dlm kete jex..

huhu ..

my bie sakan la main hjan kat luar tue .. smpai basah kuyup.. eija nan iftaz msa nie sbuk melantak kOt ? huhuh .. hujan2 nie sure lapar en ? lalalala.......

30th OctOber 2009

2009-11-08T21:04:00.000-08:00

juz arrived in KL arOund 5.30 a.m .. then angah amik kat PUDU trus ke Putrajya.. smpy je umah .. bOOm ! tdOr .. hahaha ....

10.30pg ..

trjga dri tdur ... hehe ... trOs kejut abg lOng .. pergg liat kOt nak bangOn .. hehe.. abg lOng kna antr Oshi g cheras .. puncak baiduri .. sO ktaOrg pOn bersiap2 la .. hehehehe

1.30tgah hri ..
bergerak keluar ke KL.. aduh .. susah benar mncri puncak baiduri neyh .. abg lOng pOn da pening ... hahahha .. jlan jammed lg .. pusing sane pusing snie .. x jmpa2 gaks .. lastly abg lOng da give up .. Oshi mnx abg lOng antr g sg Wang trus ... Opsss... hehe nk taw ke sape yg tnggu Oshi kt sne? Acap ler .. ta sngka kali nie jd knytaan .. ley gak jmpe.. dlu ack cancel jex ..

3.30ptg
jlan jammed... kul 3.30 bwu smpy .. Oshi tnggu die kt StarBucks .. tba2 je ade Org tegur dr blakang .. terkejuk gak la.. acap.. kamu cam oshi ek ? hehe sweet la.. huhu .. n kt stu .. Oshi knal ngan Putra ,pe'er(btul ke x eja nama nie) ngan ash .. huhuh ... then tman dOrg shOpping kejapp..
sumpah hti Oshi tyme tu .. dUbdaBduBdaB .. hehe .. gelabah kOwt .. tp dah acaP wat ilek .. Oshi pOn wat ilek jew la... haha

6.00ptg
agak lma dOrg shOpping ...huhuh guys pOn kuat shOpping ek ? hahahha lpak mCd jap.. tmankan bdak2 nie mum icE crEam .. hehe .. pastu gerak ke GMI.. tmpat my bie memerahkan Otak .. melepak .. menghabiskan msa .. huhu ...

7.15mlm ..
hahaha .. oshi tataw la tyme btul ke x.. but lebey kurang la kOt en ? smpy at GMI .. kt sne lak Oshi knal nan Refdy n Hazly .. actually da knal dlm Myspace .. tp kali nie bru real2 jmpe... huhu .. dOrg sume baru alek cluz tyme tue .. kantOi my bie x g cluz .. dush2 ketuk kple kang ! then my bie naek kjap kat hOstel.. g amek pe yg patOt kOwt ? huhu sbb ktOrg nk gerak g PD mlm nie ...

7.30mlm
sume da siap.. dalam kete ade refdy,ptra,Oshi n my bie.. gerak ke CASA .. huhu kt CASA Oshi knal ngan Kiran .. huhu brckap sal Kiran .. de patOt die engat oshi dak skOla agy ? hekhek ! taw la kecik ! wek ! :P ..lpar... huhu g mkan jaP .. lupe la kdai tu nama ape.. berlauk kOwt ! perghh mahal la.. tp lpar pnye psal .. mkan jgak2.... kt stu .. Oshi knal ngan Ieja n iFtaz.. hukhuk .. dOrg bawu smpy je... eija nan iftaZ mule lain dOuh .. tak same cm dlm Myspace..hekhek ... lpas lpak2 jaP.. trus ke CasA balik ...

oshi ta engat la kul bape gerak g PD .. msa tu pOn da rmai .. haa.. knal ngn Jep(gangster die suh pnggil) jaja.. acHa,kwan putra.. n rmay agy .. but x smpat nk knal2 .. huhuh.. g PD .. Ouh nO ! hujan dOe.. trpksa lepak kejap2 je .. sbb hujan .. tp ktOrg sempat pOse kt sne .. dlm hujan pOn smpat lg .. hahahha ... hujan nie .. sebuk2 je nk trun .. bru nk enjOy .. pe la...

dear readers ,
nnty Oshi uplOad taw piC wjah2 keriangan d PD .. :D

bie <3..

hahaha.. nervOus Ouh msa 1st tyme jmpe... tp rilexkan dri je.. thx jgak erk sbb tcre bby msa at sne.. suh tdO tp bby x tdO pOn.. huhuh ....ntah xley tdO.. tataw nape... soeii yea if dat tyme degil sket ! namO marah2 k ? psstt ... i lOve u Ouh !!

sad kOwt !

2009-11-07T21:38:00.000-08:00

my hubby is gOing baCk tO GMI tOday.. huhu ! feel like wanna cry .. biar jauh d mata but dkat d hati ... tOl x? bie... tcare taw ! i lOve u sO damn much !! g sane study .. tamO nOtty2 k ? hekhek... swear 2 u ! u're my everything ! n will never fOrget u even 4 a secOnd k ?

Oshi says tO acap :

bie..g sne study .. takmO main2.. final na dkat en ? t ketuk
kple kalO memain..huhu
tcre k hOney ! tdO tu bg ckOp.. but haha bie tue
slalu tdO terlebih je.. agy stu jgan gatay2 at sna .. Opss huhu i trust u laa
... seyesly ...muacks !!
KOrang nk taw x ? actually Oshi x yakin lnsung nan cnta jrak
jauh nie.. betOl.. tak tpu... mybe sbb Oshi da terkena dlu .. it feel like shit
! but thx tO acaP.. die yakinkan Oshi yg tak semua mcm tue .. he make Our lOves
nie mOre wOnderful .. haha .. cra die tu wat Oshi rsa .. better jauh xpe .. kalO
dkat takOt gadO2 ke en ? thx bie ! <3

actually Oshi da hlang kata2 .. mybe sad kan ..
terlalu rndukan acap sgt2 ! ntah bile dpat jmpe agy !! :(

thx 4 da explanatiOn ...

2009-11-07T05:58:00.000-08:00

hahaha... selepas membaca penerangan di bwah ... ternyata skali betul suma tanggapan bby kat u b ... pe yg ade dlm Otak bby dlu dh trjwab ... ley jd ahli nujum la bby nie heheh...tOl x sygs ??huhuhuh ... mula2 x seyes kan ? lpas jmpa baru seyes ?

nOtty nie... hehe ! erm bile da jmpe bru kite taw hti msing2 .. ryte? huhu .. bby mmg xlari mne la .. b jge bby elOk je kan ? bby mmg degil la syg .. tak pnah ikOt ckap sesapa... smpy la ngn b .. brjya pjOk bby lak tue .. sume bnda la bby ikOt .. kalO ngn Org lain ? jgn harap la..

thx taw sbb bg bby peluang .. huhu will prOve it tO u ... majOk ? ngade2 ? haha ade la .. kan2 ? tp xde la nk Over2 sgt ?bertempat jgakk .. agypOn nk majOk wadpe.. wat kusut2 Otak je kan ?

hahahha... girl always like dat la.. merajOk tu sbb nk perhatian lebey je... hehehehe....

hahahaha.. sedeyh la bace ayt try test .. adakah sye bhgian ujikaji hati n persaan ? huks jOkes je sygs.. huhuh .. im trying tO be the best fOr u la...tp kan .. ade stu statement u kt stu ~sume bnda nk kna gtaw ~ mcm xuke je.. b ta suke ek ? hmm .. bby rsa kt stu cm x bape uke .. jujur kna ade sygs ? k ?

huhuh ..btw thx yeah sbb hit balik my statement !! lOve u yeah !! n will always be with u !! k ?

thx jgak sbb spent time ngn bby msa kat KL ritu .. b taw x .. bby rsa u jgak kwan terbaek bby selain jd my hubby ! u bOle jd kwan n u bOle jg bf !! lOve u lOve u lOve u !! thx jgak sbb hOnest ngn bby !! really appreciate dats !! u make my life perfect sygs ! hahaha ......muahmuahmuah !!!!

penerangan...hahaha...

2009-11-07T05:13:00.000-08:00

ouh cam tue ape yg bby rase erk??...
heheheh..
smpey aty ouh..hahaha

mase tue b memg rase cam x serius ouh....
sbab mase tue b nk be alone..
sbb kn cple nie wat semak jerk...
bukan bez pon sbb sume bnde nk kne gtaw kn...
tp depend la kt cple tue sndri kn...

mase tue b memg nga cri sum1....
then b rase bby yg sesuai...
so b nk la taw aty bby cm ne kn..
then i realise yg bby sesuai ngna b

sbb bby pham b ouh..
x cam gurl yg laen..
x abeh2 nk majuk..
like shit!!!....
hahahahah

b plih bby sbb tue larh....
jjur nyer

mase b mnx cple tue
b cam x yakin taw
lbeyh kpada try test
huuhuhuh

tp lpas tue bru b taw yg b kne be serius ouh....


b syg la kt bby taw....
mase kte jmpe tue....
b ske sgt plok bby..
sbb bby bez...

nk jge bby pon snang..hehe
pgang jerk..
bby x lari..

hehehhe..
then bby x ngade2..
x majuk...
x sgke bruk....
n pling pnting bby ikut ckap b

mase nie bby nga x sehat.
b risau ouh kt bby
hope bby x skip mam ubat k...
pliz dgar la ckap b taw..
huhuhuhkkkk...

b ade bby jerk..
so jgan la x epy taw....
smile k..
mwahx

intrO !

2009-11-07T03:00:00.000-08:00

HellO ..

Oshi here ~

ahaha... menumpang sebentar d blOg my syg mucuk ... ats kebenaran aw! hehehe ... ape erk yg nk cOrat cOret tat sni ?

erm...bercerita ttg kami ? hehe .. me Oshi .. die acap.. haha tp msa kite knal .. die x btaw die acap.. die amir shah .. haha .. klakar an .. ? almOst a year jgak la knal nan die .. but dat tyme juz fwen Only ... Oshi slalu gak la brcrita nan die msalah Oshi.. huhu .. dri myspace .. ke ym .. n bertukar num phOne .. msa tu msing2 ngn psangan msing2 ...

lastly .. he prOpOse me .. on 18th August 2009.. sumpah x cya tyme tue .. seyes ingt die main2..sbb die ckap die nk sngle je dlu .. dat tyme Oshi bawu pas Single n acaP pOn sinGle.. sO dgan rasminye .. cewaahhhh .. haha Oshi trima .. thx sygs !

p/s : bie .. i teringin nk tny u .. pe yg wat u nk cOuple nan i erk ? haha .. jwab jgn x jwab k ?

huhuh .. tp kite jauh .. skali tak penah jmpe.. seyesly mcg n call ? jarang .. x mcm cOuple lain ... hurm dlm hti Oshi tyme tu kan .. Oshi ingt die nie mmg main2 xde seyes.. yg lwaknye .. nie rhsia aw ..acaP pOn xtaw .. lpas die bca ni bwu die taw kOt .. Oshi da mlas nk mcg die .. sbb bile Oshi mcg die je .. die kdang2 x blas .. call pOn xjwab ... pastu bile Oshi da mlas nan die .. tyme tu la plak die nk mcg .. nk call .. haha .. sbar je la... cmne la yg x wat oshi pkir yg bkan2 sal die kan ?

hehehehe....

pastu ktaOrg da bnyak kali nk meet .. n bnyak kali tak jd .. haha ade je hal masing2 ... and lastly Oshi decide nk gak jmpe die On 30th OctOber 2009..ahaha .. kOrang nk taw ke pe jlan crite strusnye ? hehehe .. nnty Oshi cter aw kat kOrang !! tnggu yeA ...

bersambung nnty k ?

GUNA SEBELUM 30 OCT 09

2009-10-14T03:15:00.001-07:00

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2009-10-14T02:57:00.000-07:00

Asal ar ko nk pegy??..GMi x bez ke??...atau sume tue juz alasan jerk??..sape lagi nak jd setan klu bukan ko..lpas nie x de da la kfc time pose.huks...skrang ko nga dgar lgu black parade..ckap nk blik jap lg..jgn bsok ko x dtg da la...

n 1 no more thg..asal ko x story kt aq erk??..nk pegy cam tue jerk....igt x de tax ke??..haha...lpas nie nk hang out pon ko x de..sape nk mabok lg..haha....pape pon klu ko da dcide maybe sume tue yg terbaeq wat ko larh..damn machine..tue la alasan ko...machine bez kowt.heks...GMi bez dolw..bkan snang nk dpt cluz cancel kt tmpat laen..haha..GMi je yg ade..hehe...

klu ko btol2 pgy gak...juz wanna say...thanx eah...halal mkan mnum...haha...tp ko mnum byak lg..haks...neway hope ko epy ngan sume org...bwak BJJ121 elok2 taw..jln smpe abeh myak lg..kang x psal2 kne tolak..haha..x kn nk cntct abg ari tue lg..hehe..kondem r dye..haks...

da bez 4 ur life dot...

time mude2

2009-10-13T19:41:00.000-07:00

nie time mude2...lpak kt ptrajaya...sume ley tgok rambut rifdi yg nga bantut lg tueh..haha...sume time nie fresh2 jerk..suci lg murni..haha...mase nie aq grak nek moto jerk ngan paan...bez gak larh..memndang kn nasrul bru bli kamera dye tue kan..kje snap pix je larh..heks

Time busan kt dalam cluz

2009-10-13T19:25:00.000-07:00

nie lah time busan2 yg trpakse di manfaatkan...time nie nk kne wat presentation lorh...
mlas gler rase nyer...selamat bab agama...ade rase insaf cket..hehe....nie larh mmber2 cluz...yg blkang tue nga gelak2 tgok spontan..haha..ustad kt dpan lak nga cramah..haha..hope ustad x garang2..heks...amin..

BENGONG

2009-10-13T19:15:00.000-07:00

Rakan ku kebosanan

2009-10-13T07:59:00.002-07:00

ade la sorang awek nie...dye skrang nga busan giler..huks..cian sgt kt dye...mmber2 yg laen nga stdy ade exam...mati kutu dye dlm uma tue..hehe..klu ade sane ley gak smbang2 kn...g karoke ke..hehe..thanx gak r slalu kumen ms aq.x de la rase busan sgt..dye gak r pendorong aq wat blog nie..rase cm bez lak nk story kat cini..later i'll story la sume bout my life k..neway..aq sayang sume member2 aq.sume wat aq eppy jerk..sume probs kick tepi kte juz eppy je k....

Di saat ku gembira

2009-10-13T07:54:00.000-07:00

aqu baru lagi kt cini...

2009-10-13T05:57:00.000-07:00

aqu wat blog nie pon sbb my frenz yg suh..(harzely)..hahaha....maybe bez kowt wat blog nie..so lpas nie klu aqu busan ley gak smbg2 dlm nie...